Authors note - This is for figurative language and a original piece
I miss the way you tucked me in when
you got home from work.
I miss your mustache brushing against
the top of my lip when you kissed me goodbye
But one thing I will never forget is
you locking me in my room , for those long winter nights
Listening to me screaming for you to
let me out
Not letting me call my mom , when I
needed her the most
I hope that one day you can feel how
I felt back then
When you love something or someone
But they walk out the front door
ignoring you while you scream for them to come back
Cry yourself to sleep every night ,
wake up from nightmares with tears streaming down your face
Not being able to express your
feeling for so long ; hold it all in , I dare you.
Have you had someone tell you they
loved you and walked out?
No? I didn’t think so. That’s because
I’m living with you, saying this to me
Over and Over again , On repeat In my
brain
I find it hilarious that you can sit
there and tell me you never meant to hurt me
You didn’t hurt me , you just ripped
my heart in two .
But did I really deserve that?
Just keep laughing while I try and
hide the fact my smile is fake
Every time your words have left your
mouth , you never thought of how they would affect me
But guess what , you will never get
inside my heart again
Now look who’s laughing
The best part is that you even left
your own mother and father alone
Leaving me to be the only one to
catch them from falling through the cracks
Until one day when you come prancing
back in , stealing them from me too!
Have you done enough?
No , you decide that you are going to
bring my step dad that has cared for me more than you ever did.
Into the mess you made
Not to mention my mom and sisters
that don’t know any better than to comfort me when I cry over you
Try to be the only one with the last name
Ledger in your family out of 5 Nerdahls.
You will never be allowed ,back in my
life so don’t try
You will never talk to me again so I
hope what you said made you feel good
You will never talk to my family
again , don’t try or I promise to make your family split in a second
Turn around
Walk away
Say you love me one more time and
don’t mean it
Hear my 4 year old scream for you to
come back one more time
But don’t look back , because we all
know you’re making a mistake
Oh and never will you have your
family call me again its hard enough to let you slip out of my life
As much as I’d love to list
everything you did to me
I have much more important things to
do so
See Yah Later Gator
Remember that?
Our little saying that was only meant
for us and only us to say
Not for you to pass on to your kids
with the lady you call your wife
Do you even have any Idea what she
put me through physically?
What about dragging me to my room by
my ears
Screaming in my face , horrible
things
I would just try and stay strong for
the time given and say I will get out of here someday
But I guess staying strong doesn’t
always work
I still think about you , for sure
Do you think of me ?
Do you even still love me?
Will I ever even see you again?
Probably not am I ok with that?
Yes
The last time I saw you was in the 3rd
grade , in that courtroom
Me wanting to just be free from
whatever game you are playing
You tried to talk to me but failed ,
miserably
Like they say
I don’t cry because I’m weak
I cry because I’ve been strong for to
long
I want so badly for
You
Grandpa
Grandma
Aunts and Uncles
Even my cousins
To feel the pain that I felt
To feel your heart being ripped out
of your chest
To not be able to get anything
straight in your head
To be scared that you will be taken
from your home by a stranger , who is really your dad
My tears will fall freely when I
change my last name
Happiness
Sadness
Pure joy will be made out of those
tears
You will finally be out of my head ;
thoughts
People keep complaining about their
lives
When they have no idea what I have
been through and dealt with
I wasn’t even told , when my great
grandma died
I was forced to look all of you up on
facebook
Imagine being me and finding that out
for myself
Just tell me everything is fine
All I need is a hug
All I need are your bear hugs
All I needed was you being around
But then again , I don’t always get
what I want
Looking out the window is even hard
for me
Everything I see reminds me of you
You don’t care ..
I was in a play
I actually had a good part for once
You would’ve been so proud of me
But you weren’t there
I believe in second chances
But lately when I get mad
I can’t take it out
Until one day my blood boils over
And I scream and cry over everything
People have began thinking that I’m
crazy
All because of you
But I’m happy , you feel good about
yourself
I’m happy you feel strong enough to
stand your ground
As you watch my tears hit the ground
Come out of hiding
Show me who you really are
Show me how much you actually care
Wrap me in your arms
Hold me tight
Sing “You are my sunshine”
In my ears.
Be there to beat up
All of those boys who will break my
heart
Because , we all know that will
happen
You would be here for me if you knew
what was right
For you
But I guess you don’t
One day you will figure this out
You will come to me
Tell me your sorry you walked away
But until then I will wait