I Miss You

Authors Note : Sometimes I wonder if my real dad, thinks I wonder how Klaire is doing? Or even I should call her up and ask how she’s doing. I mean does he even think of me as his daughter anymore?  I’m happy I’m out of his life but , what does he think of this situation? I wrote this poem for every girl that has had anything go wrong with family . Lost a parent ,someone near you; even a pet. This is as true as the sky being blue.

I miss the way you tucked me in when you got home from work.

I miss your mustache brushing against the top of my lip when you kissed me goodbye

But one thing I will never forget is you locking me in my room , for those long winter nights

Listening to me screaming for you to let me out

Not letting me call my mom , when I needed her the most

I hope that one day you can feel how I felt back then

When you love something or someone

But they walk out the front door ignoring you while you scream for them to come back

Cry yourself to sleep every night , wake up from nightmares with tears streaming down your face

Not being able to express your feeling for so long ; hold it all in , I dare you.

Hey have you had someone tell you they loved you and walked out?

No? I didn’t think so. That’s because I’m living with you, saying this to me

Over and Over again , On repeat In my brain

I find it hilarious that you can sit there and tell me you never meant to hurt me

You didn’t hurt me , you just ripped my heart in two .

But did I really deserve that?

Just keep laughing while I try and hide the fact my smile is fake

Every time your words have left your mouth , you never thought of how they would affect me

But guess what , you will never get inside my heart again

Now look who’s laughing

The best part is that you even left your own mother and father alone

Leaving me to be the only one to catch them from falling through the cracks

Until one day when you come prancing back in , stealing them from me too!

Have you done enough?

No , you decide that you are going to bring my step dad that has cared for me more than you ever did.

Into the mess you made

Not to mention my mom and sisters that don’t know any better than to comfort me when I cry over you

Try to be the only one with the last name Ledger in your family out of  5 Nerdahls.

You will never be allowed ,back in my life so don’t try

You will never talk to me again so I hope what you said made you feel good

You will never talk to my family again , don’t try or I promise to make your family split in a second

Turn around

Walk away

Say you love me one more time and don’t mean it

Hear my 4 year old scream for you to come back one more time

But don’t look back , because we all know you’re making a mistake

Oh and never will you have your family call me again its hard enough to let you slip out of my life

As much as I’d love to list everything you did to me

I have much more important things to do so

See You Later Gator

Remember that?

Our little saying that was only meant for us and only us to say

Not for you to pass on to your kids with the lady you call your wife

Do you even have any Idea what she put me through physically?

What about dragging me to my room by my ears

Screaming in my face , horrible things

I would just try and stay strong for the time given and say I will get out of here someday

But I guess staying strong doesn’t always work

I still think about you , for sure

Do you think of me ?

Do you even still love me?

Will I ever even see you again?

Probably not am I OK with that?

Yes , as long as I’m still you one and only princess

Love you , forever and always

Your Daughter